How I Got Delivered From My Addiction -Randal Coats

Here is my story, I have told it to only a few people
and have kept it a secret for 3 yrs now. Even my
pastor has kept it on the back burner, if this will help
me reach out to others then here it goes. Let it bring
glory to Jesus. Since I was 7 yrs old I was in
bondage to pornography I’m 40 yrs old and was delivered from
that bondage when I was 37. Since that time God
has taken completely away any urges to masturbate
or view pornography, God has allowed me to fall in
love with my wife of 15 yrs for the “right” reasons all
over again and our lovemaking is more exciting now than when I was in bondage. HE has restored our
finances and blessed our home, HE has given me a
reason for living again and I know that HE has great
things planned for me. I was first exposed to pornography when I would go
into my dad’s little workshop that he had made out
of one the utility closets in our apartment. On his
wall he had nude pictures of women and I would
secretly go in there and stare at them, I didnt
understand what I was looking at but it awoke something inside of me and I also started
masturbating at that time also, there are other things
I was exposed to but those memories are too painful
to go back to and it would dishonor my dad and I
dont hold any blame towards him at all because he
doesnt know what he did would affect me he was only doing what his fathers did before him and I
have forgiven him and still love him even though at
age 75 he stills watches scrambled porn on cable.
By the way that curse has been broken and it will no
longer be passed down to my 2 sons! I had a typical
up bringing and went to church and did the status quo but secretly every chance I got I
would seek out the usual mags and videos when I
could. Just going into a convience store I would look
at the covers of the magazines to get my fix when I
was under 18 it was all that i needed at that time. I
never hardly had any girlfriends because I didnt
have any healthy role models, playboy and
penthouse was where I got my learning from and the women in those magazines became my girlfriends.
When I became 18 and got a job I had the money to
be more daring in feeding my addiction especially
working nights as I did for alot of years but I always
kept on the fringe while going to church at the same
time, I was smart enought not to get myself into a situation that would expose me. As time passed I
met my wife and thought that my
bondage would end but I married her for all the
wrong reasons… I married her because of the sex I
would get and had repressed for so many years it
was like an alcoholic working in a brewery. But it didnt satisfy me and I got more bolder viewing
pornography since I worked nights and my wife
worked during the day, now I hated going into adult
book stores and spending our hard earned money if
it was only a few dollars at a time. I can still smell
the odor from inside those places. I had gotten away from church also and God and we
were always living from paycheck to paycheck it
was putting my marriage on the rocks, we never
seemed to have enough at the end of the week or
month so when I didnt have any extra money to
waste just simply going into and looking at the adult movies covers in the local movie rental store would
satisfy my craving then I would bring it into our
bedroom. The Lord had been working on me during
this time
and His Holy Spirit kept talking to me and I knew I
had a problem and wanted out. I tried different things to be free but I did it in secret and would
never completely surrender, I always held back 2
percent and Now I know God wants 100 percent
from us. This kept on for a number of years and
there were
so many times where I almost got caught in the act but managed to escape without incident. Then one
day while my wife was at work and my
little boy was sleeping in his room I watched 2 hours
of the playboy channel and found myself never
being fulfilled I had had enough and comtemplated
suicide, I was tired, hurt,and felt that my family would be better off without me. I couldnt live this
double life any longer or else they would put me in a
mental hospital, so as I was preparing dinner after
finally turning off the cable t.v. as I was cutting
onions I put the blade to my wrist , I was so scared
I didnt want to die but I couldnt go on any longer, I had prayed so many times to be free… then that is
when the Lord spoke to me as I put the blade to my
wrist… He said “YOU DONT HAVE THAT RIGHT
TO TAKE YOUR LIFE, ONLY I HAVE THAT RIGHT
SO PUT THE KNIFE DOWN GO INTO YOUR
BEDROOM AND GET DOWN ON YOUR KNEES
AND ASK ME TO DELIVER YOU THE RIGHT WAY
LIKE A REAL MAN!” I went into that room and did what I was told crying
for a solid hour asking for repentence and
deliverence, I was totally broken and had no where
to go. A few weeks passed after that and I noticed
that my
urges had left me. I confided to a very dear christian elder who was vendor at where I worked, I asked
him to pray for me if he would and he said no
problem and then he left to take care of his
products. One week later this elder came to me on
his day off
to my job and asked if he could speak to me privately it was urgent that he speak to me. He told
me that one night he was praying for me and
as he was praying he saw me in a cloud and
wrapped around me were very thick heavy ropes
and I couldnt move at all then he said he heard
God’s voice in the background saying” I HAVE HEARD RANDAL’S PLEA FOR DELIVERENCE
AND REPENTENCE AND I WILL NOW RELEASE
HIM FROM HIS BONDAGE. I HAVE GREAT
PLANS FOR HIM BECAUSE OF HIS EARNEST
PRAYER BUT HE MUST BE PATIENT.” My friend
told me during this time the heay thick ropes that held me in bondage started falling off one
by one and I was free. At that moment my friend put
his hand on my shoulder crying and told me “God
loves you Randal, be patient he has great plans for
you”. Then he gave me a hug and walked away
praising God. That was 3 yrs ago and I must admit I was very
skeptical when he spoke to me but I cannot deny
what has happened to me and there are so many
times when I think the ride is going to end and Im
going to fall off but everytime Christ tells me that He
wont let me fall off because His Love for me has me strapped in for eternity. There is so much more to
this story, if this will help
anyone then let it be done and let glory be given to
Christ!

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